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Please Note: The Suicide Club Book Series is currently being updated with new material and covers. All three books will be available for sale in the very near future. Thank you for your understanding.
The Series
Lines in the Sand: An American Soldier's Personal Journey in Iraq
For F. Scott Service, a five-minute phone call one peaceful morning was all it took. Faced with the terrible dichotomy of his moral opposition to war and an innate sense of duty, little did he realize that when he was called for deployment in Iraq that his would be the journey of a lifetime. A tour of duty destined to change him forever.
Witnessing the violence of a country ravaged by chaos and facing the disintegration of his life back home, his sojourn in Iraq forced him to fight a new battle, a battle within himself. What had once been a noble intention became a desperate struggle to salvage what was left of his humanity, an excursion into the darkest recesses of the human mind that ultimately led him to question everything he had come to believe.
Pushed to the edge, only then would he discover what lay within.
An artfully lyrical epistolary composition and transcribed from his handwritten journals, Lines in the Sand is a powerful exercise in self-exploration amid heart-wrenching loss and anguish.
Playing Soldier: A Chronicle of Spiritual Awakening
As an only child isolated within a troubled family, F. Scott Service found solace in fantasy and imagination, until a fateful day led to the discovery of his father’s Korean War field jacket hidden in a closet. What began as innocent emulation and approval, eventually spiraled into the calamitous loss of everything he had built as an adult.
Faced with a grievous divorce, post-traumatic stress, homelessness, substance abuse, and the failure of everything he had willed himself to believe was truth, one night communing with a loaded pistol became the mechanism for self-clarity. From that darkest time, only elemental deconstruction and reconstruction of identity would allow him to forge a reclamation with his true, original self.
Visceral, with breathtaking candor, Playing Soldier powerfully captures the unlearning of expectation, the celebration of individuality, and the nourishing of self-acceptance once buried by cultural stamps of approval and societal convention. Braided with humor, courage, fear, despair, and hope, his unflinching, evocative story of passage into adulthood, the Iraq War, and beyond, speaks to anyone who has confronted adversity from without and grappled for their dreams from within.
the Book of Jack: An Asylum Tap Dance
On a crisp, spring evening, Dana learned that his best friend shot himself. Connected practically since birth, the shattering pain of his death invoked the deepest of questions. What could have propelled him to commit such an extreme act? How had his friend's suffering escaped him? Who was the man he had known? And why was he alive, but his friend was not?
On the road to the memorial, driven to understand and find a semblance of inner peace, he would have to reach into his heart, untangle the past, and face some uncomfortable truths.
A stunning book, charged with heart-stirring honesty, sadness, and hope, F. Scott Service boldy explores the intensely personal experience of coming to terms with death, the significance of friendship, and the essence of a lifelong connection.
